For me happiness is the calmness of the sea, Or listening to the buzzing of a bee, The insects making noise at night, Resting on the beach with the sunset in sight, Feeding a hungry dog by the road Or finding a critical bug in a code, Finding a good place to sleep when I am high, Clearing the finishing line of a race after letting out a long sigh, Getting the bite of a chicken after hours of craving, Seeing my bank balance after two years of saving, Having a cigarette by the window pane late in the night, Peace offering through ice cream after a heated fight, Finding a shade on a sunny afternoon, Or just stare at flying colorful balloons, Meeting old friends after a long time, Projecting the shine of a golden dime, Getting a place to sit on a crowded train, Or a childish attempt to outrun a plane, The smell of earth when it first rains, Finding solution to a math problem after hours of racking my brains, Reuniting with known ones after getting...
Are my thoughts oscillating within the boundaries of the hallucinogenic realm? Guess they are, because I can picture them being much similar to the rock elm, These thoughts being spread out in an ornate fashion while defying logic, Causing a dilemma in my mind and questioning myself - whether it’s chronologic? Well, I admit that this does cause a stir of hilarious uproars in my speech, You would see me bragging a lot about ideologies which I rarely preach, But it’s cool, because I am in a happy state of mind, And all these illusions bring a sense of calmness to the chaotic kind.
Scared of myself today, something has taken over and doing things in a different way than I normally do. The thoughts and actions are being taken over to operate in a logical fashion. Nothing seems to be right or wrong, it’s a state of total neutrality. I think the animal is finally out and fear has broken its shackles to finally take its natural form in my soul. Writing seems to help because it’s allowing the hidden self to expose more of itself to bring about a state of stability in the chaotic mind. Guess that’s what Mumbai has imbibed in me, the love for utter chaos and the helplessness to control it. And this devil is fucking loving this euphoria!
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