Floating feelings

It's difficult to forget you, for your love has grown it's roots deep inside me,

Every morning I think about you, a myriad of thoughts flowing through my mind,

Thinking of possibilities of how our fairy tale would have had a happy ending,

But then I force my mind to think otherwise,

I feel I have become heartless now, I feel I won't be able to love again,

I feel lonely, I am out of ways to make myself happy,

I miss you, I miss the smell of your hair,

I miss the feeling when you were around,

The goosebumps I used to get while holding your hands,

I just hope all day long , that this feeling fades away,

All these sadness surrounding me vanishes in the blink of an eye,

But do I know how much time it would take? I sure don't know that,

My heart has suffered a lot, it has been broken numerous times,

I was under the illusion that I might contain this sorrow within this time,

But then I just want it to let go, let it pour down my eyes,

For that might give some relief, make me a human again,

And I show the right feelings for the one that comes and becomes a part of me in future,

I have derived some strength from the tears that have rolled down my eyes,

And I shall rise like a phoenix from the ashes and make my life better,

And I certainly do pray that I don't remember that you happened in my life.